So, today is my birthday. Mellie is still not here and this still sucked. I ate my cake and ice cream, I thought about how much she would love to eat cake. My little smelly mellie. God, I miss her so much. I am waiting patiently for this all to get better, for time to heal. I don't feel like it is improving, as a matter of fact, quite the opposite. I have decided I want to plan an event, Mellie's Meningitis March. I'll donate all the proceeds to a meningitis foundation since We are not yet a non profit. I am shooting for her birthday, May 8th. That is a saturday. I don't know how to even begin but I know I want to do this. I want her memory to stay alive, to be known. Her face to be seen. This one is going to be short now, I am 27now but I already have an angel baby, I am already a mother. I am a sister, a daughter, and with all those what is 27 besides a blessing. Thank you for letting me see 27, for letting me see my children grow. Ill always miss mellodi, but I will always appreciate the things I love. Happy 27th birthday to me.